Forgettable

I really don't want to eat bread everyday, but today I missed you very much as every day, I gotta make a record of today.  I roamed at the bread section, to check the dates on them. I stayed there for one or two minutes. Then a lady with full head of pretty white hair stood next to me, picked up a bag of bread, gave it to me, saying something I didn't get, but she pointed at the date, natural as if I'm someone she's known for a long time. Maybe she wanted to tell me this bread was guaranteed fresh, today's date. I've tried that bread before, I didn't like it much, it was half cheaper though. And the date on the tag is not well printed, sort of smeared. But I still took it, because I trusted her choice, who had tried much more breads than me.  We don't speak the same languages, we don't have the same cultural background, howbeit it feels warm to get a bag of bread choosen by her, like she is afraid I get cheated in the world full of breads. Thank you.

Why can't it be you?, I always asked myself, when I look at them. Why is it so difficult for you to say anything to me, whilst you just happily and easily left your personal mark with other hot chicks ever where. 

At the age qualified for the management position, I imagine what can be outstanding in my resume to make it attractive to the recruiters. Considering the years wasted, no profession based on passion was built, no high-end experience was made, I'm sure I'm the exclusive one that no recruiters want in any positions of an enterprise. Oh, can "half decade of practical proficient skills on dealing with horrific scenes caused by various psychopaths" make the resume look fascinating? No enterprise needs such a skill. So it's a dead end, the job market. But they say the more you fuck around, the more you're gonna find out. Let's stick to fucking around even the end is dead, maybe can find out something. 

One day, I said "cat" in the local language to the cold cat who always ignored me when I called it in my language, the cat turned around to me immediately. It's not because the cat is indifferent, it's just me using the wrong language the cat can't comprehend. Even cats know the local language better than me, so hilarious.

My mind my body are adjusted to the mood for the last day of the month. Then I think of both July and August have 31 days. Vibe wasted. It's fine though, just a warm-up, for the real last day. Every day feels like a year. I've been wasting time since 2015, yet a lot of time remaind to waste, never see an end for me. I don't feel anything is real except pain. If per person has about 30k days alive, I want to waste all the rest days in 24 hours. Cross out all the remaining days at one time. To see no tomorrow.

When you hear "Is it my wall? Is it my house???", you reply with two seconds of silence, this is incorrect. Let me coach you how to reply, under the assumption you want to keep in touch with the listener. If not, just comply to the original epic response — silence. "If you want, they are all yours." "Definitely, they are yours as well, everything I have is yours, that's how important you're to me." Those replies may trigger to false hope, but if you're in favour of keeping the situation — let's not say forever, say, as long as it can as they both still alive, then, just reply as above with no doubt. He who can't even pay the little effort to give a false hope will not have the luck to enjoy the pleasure of lust. Thanks for the honesty to show clearly which position I'm in, tho. Duck another possibility of not being able to use the kitchen again, what a relief!  And it turns out not everyone can say things like "Why are you taki...

There it is, outside the store I go to every day, driven all the way from Deutschland. To just deliver me a message from far far away—333. Let's ask Gemini what 333 means.  The angel number 333 is a powerful spiritual sign that symbolizes growth, creativity, and alignment . It often means you are on the right path and encouraged to express your true self. Spiritual Meaning Mind, Body, and Spirit: Represents the Holy Trinity and total balance within yourself. Divine Support: Shows that your spirit guides or ascended masters are near to help and protect you . Cosmic Confirmation: Acts as a green light from the universe to trust your gut feeling and keep going. Life and Career Creative Boost: Encourages you to start new art projects, share your ideas, and use your talents. Important Choices: Appears when you stand at a life crossroads, urging you to move forward without fear. Inner Peace: Reminds you to slow down, stop overthinking, and find joy in what you do. Love and Relatio...