Forgettable

Not the first time I checked the house price there. Last time, probably last year, I checked the houses located in the city center, plus the facilities and the educational resources near the houses. I even searched the best middle school where many celebrities used to study in.  This time, I searched it again just because I saw the subtitle on a video. I clicked the video, which depicted the state from various aspects. Including the brief comparison of the housing price in different cities. Hence I searched the average salary and daydreamed how many years it would take to own a house there if I was a local. The simplest math result showed that if I had a normal job, and the spending of income is zero, I could afford a house after five years.  Hey you, yeah, you, come back, don't go too far. What's the point to do the calculation if you have never been there? You ain't creating fictional life!  For the bigger subtitle on the unexpectedly-seen video when I scrolled my phone...

The necessary step before the doughs go to the fridge for long hours is to shape them. Seperate the big dough into equal ones. Sprinkle the counter with flour, take a soft dough, pull up the edges, fold it to the center, turn it upside down, hold the dough in palm, turn it around and around on the counter. People like to put the doughs into airtight containers, I've never tried though. Doughs for what? PIZZAS!

That was a sunny morning, after we left the office. I walked with them all the way, they were talking in a language I did not understand. But I felt calm and safe. They are the few other people I know in this place. That sunny morning, I didn't wear my hat, my face got sunburnt.

The only position for me to sleep away the swelling inside my left back is not to lie on my right side or on my back, but to lie on my stomach.  Other positions made me feel like I did not sleep.

The first time I come to this beach. Walk along the short shore. Wind messes with my hair. Hello, summer.

I somehow felt the sunlight piercing the curtain, so I got up, preparing to cook breakfast. When I saw the time on the clock in the kitchen, it was just four. I felt like I stole extra hours in a day.  Sun rises at 3:22 AM.  I'd like to take a nap.

When horrible situations occurred again and again in a daily basis, there is no anger, no sadness, no surprise, no pain, no affright, no disappointment, no expectation. What's left is protection. There is still emotion if being numb exhaustedly is counted as one.  If changes can happen by itself easily, there is no doctors in the world. The more practical reason for me being numb is the frequent discomfort in my heart reminded me of the importance of being emotionally stable. I didn't drop any tears for myself or for the frightening situations I am in for a long time.