Side Effect

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Excluding the agony on the visual impact of self-abuse, which made me cry two meters of toilet papers, I scarcely felt any emotional waves in my mind. It just happened, nothing I couldn't get through. This creature is far more perplexed than anything on the planet so I have learned to not trust a shit I see or feel from this creature. 

Yet there's a obvious side effect due to the short connection -- the loss of my appetite. I was so starved that the stomachache warned me the stomach ate myself. But I didn't eat a bite of food, I drank some water. I don't like to eat anyway. 

Few days later, I still don't want to eat. As long as my mind feels nothing, I don't care about appetite.

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