Cry

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I'm so exhausted that I want to cry, as if the water dropped from the eyes can wash away all the tiredness. 

However, even my eyes are too tired to drop anything.  

I wished someone texted me a playlist for me to breathe better by hearing it. But I know it's the same moment when I was in high school, wishing someone could see me drowning in the condensed darkness but no one would see or come. I just walked away, all alone. And continue walking until I left everything behind knowing that nobody really cared. 

Thank you, words, Now the water is dropping off my eyes, I can stand up and feel nothing again. 

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