Forgettable

Today I experienced the augmentation for the first time in my life. Abeit it is not much. Did I feel happy? No. Did I feel upset? No. I told myself I'm witnessing my significant historical moment of my life, I should at least feel something different so that I could tell the past me how it was like to be on this phrase. However, these numbers couldn't awaken other emotions in me. They are just numbers for me now. The low self-esteem-me never imagined I could be capable of holding those numbers in my hands. Hey you did it, you are capable for more.  Just another busy day. At the end of August, I did appreciate I survived another month. Thank you, universe.

Il y a l'amant d'après midi. L'amant de la nuit. L'amant du printemps. L'amant d'hiver. L'amant de la silence. L'amant qui est jamais existé. L'amant vivant dans la tête sans contrainte. L'amant de l'amour. L'amant du plaisir. Mais Il n'y a pas  Aucun  L'amant de moi.

Box, I need a box, not a Pandora's box, just a medium sized box, yeah, better a wooden one, to give all the little stuff I like a safe home.  Box, I'm thinking about where to find such sort of box. Will my favourite one be too expensive like everything else I like at first glance to be affordable? Yet, I need a box. Box. A safe home.

In the afternoon sunlight, I hold a small succulent in one hand, and them in the other hand, all the way from the convenient store to the flower pot on the balcony. This is the first succulent I have ever had.

“Death can take me away from you, but can't stop me from loving you.” Something I saw in another language. I like it, so I translate it.

12 a.m., I finished cleaning the battlefield. I sit here, the reek of dead shrimps suffuses around me, albeit I have wiped the floor covered by the trash from the overturned trash bin, twice, with soda.  I was not here when it happened, but nobody cares about the air they breathe, I'm not sure how long the garbage will stay on the floor if I don't come back at all.  Sitting in the silence of darkness, I struggled to not imagine where they were when it happened.   How can I take them away without further concerns? How to terminate the problem for good? Human beings are bestowed the magnificent brains but not all of them function probably, or for some better purposes.  Hey, the one who plays the string, why did you put me to chew the hardest shit to the degree that my basic human rights are deprived in 2024?  For what?!  Why me?!

She showed me a photo of the orchids in full bloom at her windowsill.  One was pink, the other was purple. She said she liked the purple one the most because of the chubby petals. The high price was also mentioned in the conversation.  “I saw them before. I thought it blooms only once so I didn't buy it.” “Nope, I've had mine for years, they have blossomed multiple times.” Six, nobody will know even if you don't buy it.